To Jesus,

Hi there, Happy Birthday.

I just wanna say thank you for all the things that you have given to me. Thank you for giving me another special day and year to live, and for the chance to continue my journey. Thank God for making me strong. Thanks to my Family and Friends, they’re one of the best gifts that I have received from you, and I’m so lucky to have them in my life. I’m so grateful to have a friend who’s very close to my heart. I’m so thankful for them; they’re treating me as their own family. And I love this feeling; I really love the way how they treat me. It feels like I’m part of that family. I’m so thankful for that.

Lord, all I want to receive this Christmas is LOVE and PEACE OF MIND.  I know you already know what I wanna say. J

Thank you…

-carla Camille-

To Santa,

Hi Santa, How are you?

Yule tide season is in the air, is my gift ready?

All I really want to receive from you this Christmas is luxury car, but I know it’s too impossible. That’s why I’ll ask you to give me a wonderful gift that I wouldn’t forget for the rest of my life. That’s all I want. Than you Santa, I’ll wait for you… J

-Carla Camille-

To Mama and Kuya,

I love you and thank you. That’s all I can say…

To mama, thank you for your unselfish love to us. If somebody asks me how I will describe you in one word, I will immediately say ‘STRONG.’  You know why? Simply because you are so brave everytime. And you won’t let problems to ruin us. Thanks mama for being strong. That’s one of your characteristic I really love the most. I really love you ma.

To kuya, Hey you, thankyou. You’re so nice to me. I love the way how we treat each other. Though they don’t see it good, I know that is our way to show our love to each other. Thank you Kuya, I really Love you.

I’m willing to do everything for you guys! J

- Carla Camille-

To papa,

How are you there?

Next week I’m 18. I want to see you. But I know it’s too impossible. I know that there is something more important that you really have to accomplish. I have many things that I really want to say/share to you. Sometimes I can’t control myself to get envy to my classmates who have fathers in our graduation. I also wanna hang out with you, spend times with you. But what shall I do? You’re not here. I wanna hear you calling me anak. So sad. Anyaway, I just wanna greet you Merry Christmas. I love you papa. J




P.S:
I wish you we're here on my birthday! i love you...

-Carla Camille-

All I really want to receive from you is slippers, if you’ll ask me why I would just simply say because I wanna walk with you.

Are you living in the past, present or future

 Tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Mt 6:34)

Many of us are burdened, if not caught up with our past. More than the consequences of our past actions, we let the memory of the past drag us down. We like to hit the rewind button in our memory and lick the wounds of long ago. We open up one painful memory and then a sudden flood of other unpleasant memories comes rushing in. And downward spiral we go.

We spend most of our time entertaining our bitterness, pains and disappointments of yesterday. We even spend countless hours just imagining the day we will get our vindication or even vengeance from past hurts. As we waste our time dwelling in our past, our present is wasted as well. And the sad thing is that our today is our tomorrow’s yesterday. Wasting the present now is just adding up to our wasted past. And the vicious cycle continues.

Many of us are also so anxious about our future. While our bodies reside in the present moment, our mind has time traveled years from now. We spend much time being worried and gloomy to things that has not happened yet. We are so absorbed in the “What Ifs” that we forget the “What’s now?”

Our present also affects our future very much. To have a better tomorrow is to have a better today. Our actions today will greatly affect our future, good or bad. To waste your time today being anxious about tomorrow is to waste the opportunity to improve your tomorrow.

To live life is to live in the present moment. The past is dead and the future is yet unborn. The key to healing the past and having a hopeful future lies to what you will decide to do NOW. Now is the only thing we really got. If you waste the present moment by dwelling in the past or being anxious about the future, you end up losing everything.

The past belongs to God’s mercy, the future to His Providence and the present to His Love. To live in the present moment is to accept and experience God’s love here and now.

Today is your tomorrow’s past.

The way you live today will make your tomorrow better or bitter.

Today is where you are.

Are you there?

  When the world says, "Give up," Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."

Author Unknown

12 days...

17 years of existence i have faced a lot of obstacles and  problems that had taught me a lot of things and made me learn from my previous mistakes. I enjoy those things that i encounter as my life goes on. Be it good or bad, I know that all of these are part of life and I know that this is the reason why I'm bravely standing here. 

12 days from now, I'm already at my legal age. I'm not into the usual fabulous celebration of my 18th Birthday. All i want is to be with the people who loves me and the people I love the most, My family, Friends and my especial someone. Just simply go to church, eat with them and spend the whole day with them, for me that's the perfect celebration. I don't need a fabulous and gorgeous celebration just for it. My goals and dreams are more important for me than that. but if you'll gonna ask me what I want receive on my Birthday and if its not much to ask I really want a brand new luxury car of my own, a peaceful home, a multi-national company and someone like Nick Carter to be with me forever. HAHAHA. kidding aside, all i really want is a peaceful and happy life with my mom and brother. <3

Why is this happening?

What is Child sexual abuse? Why is this happening?

I decided to write this topic on my blog because I heard much hearsay about Child abuse, Sexual Abuse and etc. I’m not one of those people who were abused but I’m concern with them.

Child abuse is doing something or failing to do something that results in harm to a child or puts a child at risk of harm. Child abuse can be physical, sexual or emotional. Neglect, or not providing for a child's needs, is also a form of abuse. Even on facebook , people united to put their favourite cartoon characters as their primary photos as a sign of awareness on child abuse.  Child sexual abuse is a form of child abuse in which an adult or older adolescent abuses a child for sexual stimulation.

Child abuse is a serious problem. Most abused children suffer greater emotional than physical damage. An abused child may become depressed. He/she may withdraw, think of suicide or become violent. An older child may use drugs or alcohol, try to run away or abuse others and some feel hopeless and the others are traumatized because of that many children/teens find it hard to trust and get along with other people.

I’ve talked to some people who experienced to be abuse; here are some of their statements...

I'm nervous all the time.'

'I feel like it's my fault.'

'I get angry at everyone'

'I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone'

'I get depressed like I can't be bothered with anything.'

'I have nightmares and can't sleep.'

'I feel like I'm not as good as other people.'

'I don't know what to do, I feel helpless.'

'Sometimes I feel like I want to hurt myself.'

'I just want to tune out and forget it. Sometimes I get pissed or stoned, but that only blocks it out for a while.'

Maybe you have felt like this or maybe you have a different reaction. Remember there's no right or wrong way to feel. Though I’m not abused it feels like I can relate to them. I’m not abused physically but I’ve experienced being cursed at by one of my freaky not – so – close relative. 

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Carla Camille

Goodbye

Now is the moment of your life

I never wished to ruin it with my teary eyes

but I gotta tell you 

that i'll miss that days

the friendship that we shared

and i'll always remember that day when.

You walked with me

and told me that you believe 

that I'm worth a smile

I'm worth the while

and now we're parting ways

soar up the sky

and fly high towards your dreams

but tell me please, You'll never 

mean goodbye.

Believe

In the beauty of your dreams

soon you'll find everything

you wanted all of your life and tonight,

I wanna walk with you

and tell that I believe

that you're worth a smile

you're worth the while

Oh, tell me please

you'll never mean

Goodbye.

One of  my favorite poems in "Metaphor" (official Literary Folio of The Genre).

it's good to be lighthearted...

" Friends are like the walls of the house- sometimes they hold you up, sometimes you lean on them and sometimes it's just nice to know they are standing by. "

It's been a long night with you fellas...

It's a very happy night...

We've been to Subic to relax ourselves and also to gather together because it's a once in a lifetime experience. This gimik is not actually planned, they just picked me up in our house and there it goes...

First we go to Subic Fiesta Carnival to play color games and etc. me and my other friends are not that lucky in that game so we both decided to go around the carnival to have fun, but our other friend believes that he is lucky on that day... so he played. and fortunately, we won a hundred pesos... yey! We immediately go to a ride which is viking, it's very fun! I can't forget the feeling of getting there... After a short time of riding, We go to bay walk formerly board walk to stop in a while to talk about our ridiculous feeling in that said ride. that was so stressful but at the same time, funny... and after that we go to the old Hospital in subic, of course we want an adventure. --- gosh... that was so scary... please?! take me home! i can't lasts another minute here... and after that long scary night, we've finally achieve our dream adventure...WOW! I bet we're all scared and i sure you that all of us really wanna go home...

oh! it's 1:00am. we have to go home... 'till next time! :-)

<3

Welcome to the world...

"we cannot do great things. only small things with great love."


Today is all saints day. celebrating all saints day is part of our filipino culture. We filipinos believe that even when the ones we love had died we still believe that they're still there with us...That is one of the good characteristic of a filipino. Our Family used that event to gather together, because we know that it's a perfect event to have each other.

But for me, it's not just a normal day or a celebration. this day is one of my most unforgettable day with my family especially with my younger sister geraldine. you know what? she taught me how to eat "ice crumble." funny right? I've been living in this world for 17 years but I've never tried it. but honestly its good, its so delicious.  I can't forget the sweet taste of milk and marshmallow(oh, I'm craving for it). I'm her elder sister but it feels like i'm the youngest. <3